This month I have decided I need to force myself out of my comfort zone; so I’m going to do something that usually scares the shit out of me: hang out with myself more – in public.
I’m not too sure what it is about being alone in public that makes me nervous, but it makes me pretty anxious. Hell, I couldn’t even go Christmas shopping alone until a few years ago, which gets a bit tricky/awkward when your friends aren’t around and you need to buy presents for your family…
I guess for me, it comes down to feeling watched and or/judged. Hanging out at the library has been fine, I guess that’s cause there are people there by themselves all the time, and it’s easy to fade away in to the background with a book, but I’ve always felt like I’ve been glared at while I’ve been at cafes by myself – this is something I need to get over. Who cares what other people think? Obviously I do, a bit too much sometimes, but I shouldn’t.
So, this month it’s all about me, getting used to being alone by myself in places that I would usually feel completely uncomfortable and out of place alone in. Here’s my list so far:
- Go to a cafe and have brunch – did this today, I didn’t feel as weird or as out of place as I thought I was going to, and my eggs benedict was delicious.
- Go to a movie – there are so many things that I want to see at the moment, but just never get around to watching anything
- Go for walks to parks and play on the swings, cause swings are awesome!