Doing It Alone

This month I have decided I need to force myself out of my comfort zone; so I’m going to do something that usually scares the shit out of me: hang out with myself more – in public.

I’m not too sure what it is about being alone in public that makes me nervous, but it makes me pretty anxious. Hell, I couldn’t even go Christmas shopping alone until a few years ago, which gets a bit tricky/awkward when your friends aren’t around and you need to buy presents for your family… 

I guess for me, it comes down to feeling watched and or/judged. Hanging out at the library has been fine, I guess that’s cause there are people there by themselves all the time, and it’s easy to fade away in to the background with a book, but I’ve always felt like I’ve been glared at while I’ve been at cafes by myself – this is something I need to get over. Who cares what other people think? Obviously I do, a bit too much sometimes, but I shouldn’t.

So, this month it’s all about me, getting used to being alone by myself in places that I would usually feel completely uncomfortable and out of place alone in. Here’s my list so far:

  • Go to a cafe and have brunch – did this today, I didn’t feel as weird or as out of place as I thought I was going to, and my eggs benedict was delicious.
  • Go to a movie – there are so many things that I want to see at the moment, but just never get around to watching anything
  • Go for walks to parks and play on the swings, cause swings are awesome!
I need to think of more things to do alone (stuff that won’t get me arrested, so if you’ve got a dirty mind, and you’re thinking: masturbate! Yeah, nah… Not gonna happen), until then:

 

3 comments

  1. Anna J (@coolabeans) says:

    Good on ya girl! I’ve eaten by myself quite a bit; trick is to look like you’re busy, like reading something or on the phone LULZ

    I wanna watch a movie by myself too.. One day I won’t be too scared to be judged at for that hehe

    All the best! :)

    • xoxBubbles says:

      Awww, thanks :)

      Looking busy is key I reckon, I was on the laptop writing (this post) when I was at the cafe this morning…

      And yeah, totally need to go to the movies alone, so many things that I want to see, but just never get around to watching… it’s time to change that :D

      • Anna J (@coolabeans) says:

        Haha Yeah! There are quite a few movies that I want to see that no one else wants to that’s why I’m tempted to watch it by myself at the cinema. But then there’s downloading so.. Hehe But with the new law in place that may change.

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